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Tuesday, May 13th, 2003
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6:29 pm
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Just in case you didn't see the first one, I am now ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) clearmidnight So feel free to Add me. Its 100% friends only.
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| Friday, May 2nd, 2003
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3:42 pm
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Dear people,
I now have a new Livejournal. clearmidnight. It is 100% friends only and you have to add me, or comment on this entry and I'll add you back.
I'll miss this journal *clings*
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| Saturday, March 29th, 2003
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1:33 pm
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I guess I'll talk about what happened.
Thursday night, after my doctor's appointment, I went out, cause I wanted to get out. Michelle and I ended up talking our way into a 21+ show at the Alehouse. PLANESIDE!!!! I love them. Heh. After that, the almighty Brenda stole us, and took us up to the big easy to say hi to 6gig. Then we left, it was 2AM. Momma wasn't happy that I came home that late. So, yes. She wanted me dead.
It was worth it.
I thought Stephy and I were gonna hang out today, but I guess she made other plans, its all good. I'll go flyer avec Michelle-o.
current mood:  blah
current music: Thin Lizzy-The Boys are back
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| Tuesday, February 18th, 2003
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3:21 pm
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| Monday, February 17th, 2003
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1:55 pm
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Oh how you sicken me. You make me cringe, to think someone such as you actually has the audacity to do something as this. You're nothing you say you are. You think we don't know, you are humored, much like a child who thinks a fairy comes and brings money for their teeth. We know. We know. Your false affairs, your false image of yourself. You're nothing. You're no better than any of us. You're worse. You're scum. To walk out like this on someone, to go away to play with all your imaginary friends. Its called karma. It'll all come back to you. Its already starting. Those people who actually are there for you, will all be gone. Step back. Look at the fantasy world you've created for yourself. Watch it all crumble.
current mood:  discontent
current music: Radiohead-Creep
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| Thursday, February 6th, 2003
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2:37 pm - Stolen from one helluva hardcore kid
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) First grade teacher's name: Mrs. Thompson
2) Last word you said: OK
3) Last song you sang: Sheila Take a Bow by The Smiths
4) Last person you hugged: Uh...Stephy, possibly
5) Last thing you laughed at: haha, Conan O'Brian and Patton Oswald 'The System of a Down Grill!'
6) Last time you said 'I love you': Today to Michelle
7) Last time you cried: eh, its been a while
8) What's in your CD player: Live-Throwing Copper, The Smiths-Singles, Donnybrook-Bleeding the Grain
9) What colour socks are you wearing: No socks, I do have a home made ghetto foot splint made out of electrical tape and cardboard
10) What's under your bed: Trash, some CDs
12) Current taste: Diet Pepsi
13) Current hair: Pretty Blah Purple
14) Current clothes: tim horton's t-shirt and 2 pairs of Pyjama pants
15) Current annoyance: My footy hurts
16) Current longing: to dye my hair
17) Current desktop picture: Trogdor the Burninator!
18) Current worry: That my foot is broken
19) Current hate: My dog
20) Story behind your LJ username: I was on a NIN trip at the time, and Downward spiral is my favorite NIN album
21) Current favourite article of clothing: My brand new Smiths shirt and my comfy jeans
22) Favourite physical feature of the opposite sex: SIDEBURNS, Hair, Eyes, Smile
23) Last CD that you bought: The Smiths-Singles
24) Favourite place to be:At shows/concerts, just out on the town, with friends
25) Least favourite place: my house, school
26) Time you wake up in the morning: usually 6:30, today though it was 11
27) If you could play an instrument, what would it be: Drums...sooon...possibly the harp or something
29) Do you believe in an afterlife: I don't think so
31) Current favourite word/saying:bah,blah,bumblefudge
32) Favourite book: The Exorcist
33) Favourite season: Spring
34) One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: Uh...myself, I guess, and warn myself
35) Favourite day: saturday
36) Where do you want to go: London London London!!!! NYC on March 11, too :-D
37) What is your career going to be like: In the music business, no doubt about it
38) How many kids do you want: 2 or 3
39) What kind of car will you have: A pretty one!
40) Type a line you remember from any book: 'It is a sin to kill a mockingbird' -To kill a mockingbird
41) A random lyric: 'I don't care if monday's blue, tuesdays grey and wednesday too, thursday I don't care about you, its friday, I'm in love'-The Cure
I think my foot is broken. Blah
current mood: blah
current music: The Cure-Friday I'm in love <3
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| Monday, February 3rd, 2003
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3:01 pm
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Weeee, Hooray for Melissa getting accepted into Elmira!!!!! I wub her!
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| Wednesday, January 29th, 2003
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5:58 pm
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| Tuesday, January 28th, 2003
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4:44 pm
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| Wednesday, January 22nd, 2003
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5:29 pm
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mistyeyes684: you're dog, he's good for punting
I <3 Mandy
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| Tuesday, January 21st, 2003
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1:34 pm
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First day of midterms--Over. Health was easy. We watched babies being born for the first half. blech. That class rocked, thanks to Mandy and Tyler...and now its over. Geometry was easy. Mr. Farrell says I should play rugby, i'm seriously considering it. It seems fun. Quite dangerous though.
current mood: blah
current music: Radiohead-Creep
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| Saturday, January 18th, 2003
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1:05 pm
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Well Well Well..I don't want certain people reading this. So, from now on, my diary is going to be Friends Only and If you'd like to be added to my friends list, just leave a comment or add me...simple as that.
current mood:  annoyed
current music: Nothing
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| Tuesday, January 14th, 2003
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10:21 pm
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x RudeGirlSka x: you have no idea how great youve been to me. youve watched my back when no one else would. youve understood me in a way no one else will ever get me. youve got so many people that love you, and i would give up almost all my friends just to know that i could keep you for the rest of my life. you will always be like an angel to me bec. always. i love you so much.
...and my night has been made :-)
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3:24 pm
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I just wrote a long entry on how much I hate myself, but it didn't work. fecking computer. I'll try again.
Last night...bah. My father came home drunk. I didn't care. He insulted and hit me, like always. I didn't care. I just wanted to get out. I don't know why I still let it affect me like it does. I'm so immune to it, but for some reason, 'Stupid' 'Ugly' 'Idiot' 'Mistake' still hurt. Especially coming from my father. I believe it though. Its all I have to believe. So yeah, I went bowling. I was so depressed and on the brink of tears that I had to pretend I was happy, and I overplayed it. So now Michelle hates me because I'm 'too immature' damnit, I'm a 15 year old girl! I'm allowed to be immature, to a point. Yeah...anyway...Rocktopus hates me...especially Spencer. I can tell. Eh, I'd hate me if I were them too. Things suck. I hate myself. I smoked a cigarette last night. Never again. Fuckit. I DON'T SMOKE. smoking is repulsive. I don't smoke, I don't smoke, damnit. I don't smoke. Yea...so, My dad gave a few people a ride home afterwards, and once they were out of the car, more insults. I cried. I never cry. I cried, because for the first time ever, he said 'I hate you.' Straight up, I hate you. Thats the worst thing anyone can tell you, ESPECIALLY your father. I feel so unsafe in this house...but..I have no where to go and no one to turn to... Erg. I hate myself so fucking much. I give up on everything. I got a letter, from the dean of admissions from Tulane University in New Orleans. A personal letter, saying that I'm Tulane material, and they want me to go there once I graduate. TU-FUCKING-LANE. I wanted to go there. But...I can't be that far away from everything. For the same reason I don't want to go to UCLA anymore...I'll miss everything. Friends and Local rock especially. Michelle is leaving next year, and she doesn't even care...she's just like 'this is what happens when people grow up, they go to college' ouch. PLUS, Melissa is leaving me too. damnit. Of course it wasn't going to last forever...but they make me so happy. damn. I feel like they get me, they get the local rock thing. nobody else gets that about me. gah. I <3 the fearsome foursome. I'm hopeless. So now, I continue to listen to my beloved Popsicko CD and pretend everything is alright.
Change your face to fit into any situation
current mood: crappy
current music: Popsicko-Final Factor
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| Monday, January 13th, 2003
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2:48 pm
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This has probably been stated before, but Never go to the hair salon when you're in a bad mood. bah. I've decided I hate it. Its so short. ugh. brargh. Yeah...Bowling tonight...Conor is going to meet me there at 5:00...so I'm glad he didn't ditch me...I'm going to try to talk my dad into driving up to Auburn to get Lissy, because I feel so incredibly bad. blah.
School was okay, I guess...Midterms next week, and Royal Rumble on Sunday :-D
current mood:  content
current music: Custom-Hey Mister
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| Sunday, January 12th, 2003
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8:27 pm
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ho hum...
Cut my hair today. Its short. I think I like it, though. I haven't decided yet. Its fun to play with, though. Bowling tomorrow *glee* but, I hate my dad for changing his mind about Auburn *sad* I have green hair, with a random purple spot now. huzzah.
...peaches and cream
current mood: blah
current music: Vacationland-Addicted to the Knife
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7:23 pm
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my head is on fireeeeeeeeee
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12:38 pm
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*heavy sigh*
Maurice Gibb died. Damnit. I loved the Bee Gees. So much. Damnit. I hate death.
current mood: crushed
current music: Crowded House-Don't Dream Its Over
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| Saturday, January 11th, 2003
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6:50 pm
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What fucking nerve that man has. He drives my brother around, to all his friends houses and everything...and he's drunk. Drunk and driving his son around, not caring that there is a huge chance he could kill them both. What fucking nerve. My mother is crying, and he is laughing at her. What fucking nerve. I don't even want to admit I'm related to him.
current mood:  pissed off
current music: Goldfinger-Happy
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12:43 pm
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Last night was good times.
I was happy to be out of the house.
Chris, Joanie and Stephy picked me up, we went to Denny's, I had fun sticking my body out the window, too.
Stephy said it was her birthday, so she got free food, and they sang 'happy birthday' to her. HA. Its not her birthday :-P
We then went and saw 'Bowling for Columbine' and damn, what a good movie. I agree with all of it. Then, we just drove around...and didn't egg random things, THATS for sure. Went home and slept. Dreamt about talking goats...and me and Conor just walking around portland, yelling at chickens. Paxil makes me have fucked up dreams. heh. off I go for a day of boredom! woooosh
current mood:  dorky
current music: Matthew Good Band-Weapon (thanks Kelli, MGB rocks)
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